Memories

First time I heard my brother "Rap" it was to this song. Sometimes, I miss him. Most the time I miss my childhood. Various reasons of course, but this song always takes me back. Not to mention makes me cry each time I hear it. Which is why I don't listen often.
It fits.

"I shead tears with my baby sister
Over the years we was poorer than the other little kids
And even though we had different daddy's, the same drama
When things went wrong we'd blame mama"

"A poor single mother on welfare, tell me how ya did it
There's no way I can pay you back
But the plan is to show you that I understand
You are appreciated"

"But now the road got rough, you're alone
You're tryin to raise two bad kids on your own
And there's no way I can pay you back
But my plan is to show you that I understand
You are appreciated"

"I wish I could take the pain away
If you can make it through the night there's a brighter day
Everything will be alright if ya hold on
It's a struggle everyday, gotta roll on"

God, what a brilliant song.

"Pour out some liquor and I reminisce, cause through the drama
I can always depend on my mama"

Bank Of Jen: Closed

This afternoon my brother called me. I wished him a happy birthday and he instantly asked me for cash because his car got booted.
Boo-Mother-Fucking-hoo. I told him to get a job. "But Jenny, you don't understand." "No, I do. You need to get a job. How about this Pat, if you want to call me to say hi and talk, thats great but if you want to call to ask for money, don't fucking bother. The bank of Jen is closed." And then I hung up on him.

Welcome back Spine, I missed you.

Well theres that family bond broken

Yesterday I called my brother to tell him about Grandma and he hung up on me.
I called him back and said something along the lines of,
"Look, what I have to say is important, dammit, so why don't you pull your head out of your goddamn ass and listen for thrity seconds. Grandma is dying, and I don't expect you to care or do anything. You can do what you always do and flake out. Don't worry, you don't have to lift a finger. I'll be there when she dies and handle everything. Just though you wanted to know you self absorbed asshole."

And then I hung up on him. I don't think he'll be calling me anytime soon.

My Brother is insane.

He's been on the phone with me for 30 minutes and has reminded me over and over again how much I miss him.
He's having a break down over our dad calling so much, and when he drinks he's like me. He talks, about everything and everyone.
God I love him.